facing the unknown and unexpected.

November 11, 2009 · Filed under Learnings, Ongoings

recently i read 2 books, and both had something in common. facing the unknown and unexpected! the truth is, as much as you can prepare and expect. life definitely has more than just what you can expect! and thats the unexpected! and when it pops up in your life, it will always be quite a shock at first.

 

but after that, you have to take a deep breath, look at reality and move on closely with God. i have no other ways that is better than that! otherwise it feels as if you might just fall out of it, the most crucial time where your life may take a change, either for the best or the worst. as long as your hands are being held by God throughout, you’ll know you’re safe even if it’s scary!

 

it’s always a new kind of experience facing unknowns and unexpected(s), and everything you venture further than you already have with God. it’s kinda of a mixed feeling of excitement and a lil mix of fear and uncertainty. but when faith takes the place, God leads the way!

 

i think o lvl peeps will identify with this on the day before knowing your results, knowing the course you get into, knowing your future classmates, knowing your new living place.

 

but before all these, of course! stick through with Him! so that nothing will waver or stir us who stands firm in Him!

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the resolve.

November 9, 2009 · Filed under Happenings, Learnings

wow it’s already a month into my attachment! 1 whole month! honestly this one whole month was quite a different way of living for me. it’s called the working life! hahaha.. where u wake up at 6.30am, prepare, leave hse, reach work, work til 6pm, and then u feel all beat and tired that u want to do nothing but head straight home and slack.. well it wasn’t like that for me every night.. but there were nights that were like that. and i end up procrastinating on running haha. freaks man.

 

so today i decided to go for a run after i reach home straight! managed to do that, and it was really cool of how God is bringing me back from my kinda side tracked life! since last week, til now! from sermon, to this “unblock me” game, and to running. it was all about, facing God and not anything else!

 

from the sermon, on how whenever i face problems or struggles! the one thing i need most is to stick close to God, so i would be God-conscious and not self-conscious! so that i would really be one that leads the life that is God-centered!

 

then to this puzzle game, “unblock me”. really learning on not giving up, taking a step back, look at the big picture so i would see what i have left out to finish that very puzzle i can’t solve.

 

then to running! having the resolve, the desperation to want that very life with God! to really take a step back, take a breath, look at the big picture that God has for us and finding that way out with His word!!

 

and all in all! to have that very determination and resolve to live a righteous life with Him, holy and blameless, above reproach! i’m definitely not there, but i would want to be! i would plan my life to be one as well! with practical actions! listening to at least a podcast while working, taking time out to run and chill out with God etc! i love to chill out with ppl, but chilling out with God is a whole different level! it fills me from the inside out!

 

one life, one God! to live that allout life for Him=)

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do something.

October 18, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Ongoings

one of the worst habits of mankind, to see something you can do but yet turn a blind eye to it.

this is one of my most hated thing to do, still i do it sometimes. freaks. but still it takes a lot of courage to do that something that you know is right!

for that i really respect those who have the courage to stand up for what is right! because they know the truth, they dare to face it and they stand up to it!

really thank God for my sheep, friends and leaders who speaks honestly with me! i really appreciate it so much! i hate living in lies and much more facing lies. however much i hate those, there are always times of falling to it! and God’s grace and mercy together to bear the consequences of those.

the moment when you know went wrong somewhere, turn back quickly otherwise you would go wrong further and further!

the moment when you feel that within you, doing some thing does not feel totally right at all. check with yourself and God again before you do it!

the moment you hide, allow light to shine thru by seeking God’s grace and ppl who love and accepts you!

the moment you live, live it like how Jesus lived. Love, accept and be all that you really are.

don’t just let things be swept under the carpet in your life! DO SOMETHING!

it is always easier to do it now, then to do it later! =)

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oh no!

October 14, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Happenings, Insights, Learnings, Ongoings, Quotes

it’s really oh no! in just the first week of my attachment i am already exposed to this much good food! HOW TO SURVIVE MY NEXT 14 WEEEEEEKS.

its really sad i don’t have a camera phone or camera. or i’ll really spam shots all my food. WHICH! \ i have really fun colleagues that i enjoy hahaha! seriously!

today i went just 2 levels below my workplace for a meal, it’s at hong lim complex in chinatown. and it’s near chinatown point if you want to find it hahaha.

and my favourite food of the day? YAM PUFF. i really need to get a new phone with camera or smth. there’s this curry puff shop on the second level, which curry puffs are said to be real nice. personally i think the chicken one is just normal. BUT I LOVE THEIR YAM PUFFS. if you are not one that dun like yam, try it! i bought 1 in the morning, bought another one after i ate my meal hahaha. seriously good i tell you! and my meal was curry rice! it’s actually just mixed vege rice with not bad curry. but its cheap! just $2.50 for 1 meat and 1 veg with rice. in chinatown i think that price is quite hard to find for food.. i dunno much places yet tho! haha.

andddddddddddd my next to try dish. CRAYFISH HORFUN! the crayfish and prawns look really good. *drools*. but i can’t eat it tmr=( cos u know why? i’ve been invited to the company dinner tmr NIGHT! ITS AT SHANGRI LA AND HAS INTERNATIONAL BUFFET. i heard it will have alot of seafood!! so i wan to keep my stomach for that hahahaha. oh man.. so blessed man! hahaha. so i’ll leave that crayfish horfun on friday! anyone wanna eat tgt?=D

oh and really thank God for my company man hahaha, i dun think i’ll ever run out of ppl to eat lunch with! they are real friendly! and then next wed i think, i’m gonna go eat at hanabi japanese restaurant with 5 of my colleagues! i got invited even tho i dun know some of them haha! and it’s one of their birthday! so cool! and plus its cheaper cos we have coupons to it! FREAKS. i feel like i’m enjoying my internship too much hahahaha. but really the food=( so tempting=(.

im really excited about my attachment hahaha and seriously again. about the food there as well LOL. but that aside! really thank God how He helps me to build relationships with my colleagues! there’s this guy whose like teaching me the ropes of the job, he’s also an intern but started work like few months back i think. really grateful cos i was just lending his ipod to watch movie cos i was bored and had nth to do. and he borrowed mine to listen to songs, but my song’s are mostly like christian songs hahaha. and it was a good opportunity for me! when we went tgt to another room to print stuff. he asked me if i was christian and stuff, and so i carried on further knowing more bout like his background. and he happens to only go for services on christmas etc. really pray i can help him get connected to God! i heard tertiary has an ess coming up this sat! and this friday is his last day! oh man! God help me!

i really believe theres so much more in store for me man haha. 3 words “use me more”!

oh and i saw this quote in one of the emails i were replying as the customer’s email signoff or smth like that. i find it interesting, true and saddening.

“No man means all that he says, and yet very few say all they mean, for words are slippery and thought is viscous.” -Henry Brooks Adams.

my heartfelt desire is to really mean all that i say and say all that i mean. to be honest, who i am, without masks nor anything. and of course i hope ppl around me can like that too=) it would make such a big difference in our society if only ppl can start to be more truthful to each other. it would make a big difference to your group too, whether every cg member is truthful or not.

and another thing i learnt in my work today, acceptance is allowing failure. failing to allow failure, would mean failing to accept and love. we have to do it God’s way. to accept and love all that is imperfect, yet does not stop at seeing the imperfect fail and fall, but to carry it on to the next level by helping them grow. one who accepts, will be allowed the privilege into another’s life.

thank God for everything!=)

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first day of work!

October 12, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Happenings, Insights, Learnings, Ongoings, Quotes

if you know me, you would know that i got into alot of troubles while rushing thru my life sometimes. like the most recent one, rushing for bus and then ending with quite a big injury on my knee. AND SO. i like my life to be non-rushing. i enjoy it that way, and i managed to do it today! i woke up early, prepared and went there by bus! started my day with reading God’s word! and nw i have this section in my notes on itouch “Journals OTG(on the go)” which i totally enjoy! and my work starts 9am, i was at chinatown at 8.20+ am! i was so glad, then i saw mac and went in for the 2.50 breakfast! again! taking my own sweet time to eat and savour the moments of morning and breakfast and tea. man… one of the best ways to start my morning well!

my work was quite fun too, have friendly colleagues, learnt alil on picking up calls and replying emails! hahaha! its really quite interesting, at least for now.

however things got even more interesting after work as i met up with qin haha! we went ion to find jun kiat to visit him at his workplace! first day of work too! and then we walked around, bought taiyaki! german potato is nice! and we took train to dhoby ghaut and ate just acia! wah. its really shuang man ! hah! really had a great time talking to him and him speaking into my life as well! conclusion: truths are harder to face than to find.

and i really enjoy just being alone sometimes, as i sat thru my bus ride home i saw this guy running after bus 23 from quite a long distance away! thank God he didn’t give up otherwise he would have missed the bus! and this thought just struck me.

as long as we don’t give up hope, there will always be hope. and sometimes something extra rewarding called success comes along! and so as long as we do not give up giving our best, success will come eventually! and God confirms this in Galatians 6:9! and so all you out there who are muggers and those who are supposed to be muggers! study hard! with God! persevere! you will really come out of it glad that you made it thru with God!=)

and oh something i just realized. having hope really means give your best to something, cos if you do something half-heartedly, which is not your best. then your hope has disappeared somehow? so don’t get hope wrong! it’s not just about not giving up, but it’s about giving your best too! if you don’t know how to live certain parts of your life, ask yourself how did Jesus live in the bible? =)

[to understand life also means to understand God. God is life.]

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mixed feelings.

October 11, 2009 · Filed under Ongoings

firstly i’m excited for my first day of work tmr! i can’t tell how blessed i am for this attachment man. other than having 3 classmates with me in the same company, there are so many ppl around my workplace to have lunch tgt! cos there are 3 others on attachment near chinatown! and you know what i found out ytd? i was telling zhiyang on my attachment and it’s company then he was like “oh there’s one of our guys working in chinatown and in travel agency too”, he’s joel’s (tpss, my cg) older brother! and when i asked him what’s the name of his travel agency, he said misa! WHICH HAPPENS TO BE MINE TOO! WOOTS. and he knows where the good food are! very impt! okay this is really cool, and i definitely have to run more. esp when im surrounded with tempting good food. freaks! i dun wan to come out of attachment 80kg or smth like that! i’ve got 5months in attachment man!!!

and i’m kinda nervous also hahaha! i dunno what to expect on my first day of job!!

but i really look forward to it heh. really pray i get sidejobs like data entry or replying email. i heard from joel’s brother that it’s really quite slack hahahaha. pray for me that i don’t have to work on sat or i can somehow nego with the boss to let me go off earlier on sat!! i dun wanna start missing service for 5 months!=( i’ll miss out so much good stuffs.. =(

and oh i had a new haircut too last week and i’m quite satisfied with it hahaha. its cooling and it’s not the usual kind of hairstyle i have. so wheee…

and i have great sheep too! great friends too! without all of them i wouldnt have made it thru my week this greatly!\

oh and its abit sad that i missed out genting trip cos of work. but at the same time im so glad God is in this with me, planning out everything for me alr heh! woosh

PS: FREE DURING LUNCH?! COME CHINATOWN FIND MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. hahahaha i so wanna explore that area’s food with many different ppl. can really expect myself to enjoy thru this attachment HAH. with food all things are possible! oops i mean with God!

okay and i’m gonna sleep early, dun wan to be late on first day of work! that’ll be so terrorizing and hard to live with. and oh also. no bus jams,no bus jams,no bus jams,no bus jams,no bus jams. thank You God for everything! yay bye.

[life could really be so much simpler and joyful with Him around.]

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increasing our time.

October 4, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Happenings, Learnings, Ongoings

podcast

above is the link to the podcast, Increasing Your Time, by pastor wayne from new hope o’ahu fellowship.

i’ve listened to that years ago when i was younger on the train. i was strucked then by how i could use my time better. and now i listened to it again with pra. and then again i am strucked by how much i can use my time much better still. ESPECIALLY, since there are holidays now. there are definitely time i have wasted, but i need to move on from this so i don’t waste any more time. same goes to anyone who hasn’t made their holidays as fruitful as they planned it to be hahaha!

but what really caught me is this. let’s say in a day, every day 86400 dollars will be put into your bank account. and at the end of everyday, if you don’t use that money it will be “thrown” away. gone forever! so what’s the first thing that comes to your mind? use everything up of course! or some may even think, “never mind what, there will still be money in the account next day”. okay true haha.

but think again, let’s say we all have a bank account, and that account stores the time that God gives us daily. exactly 86400 seconds. no more and no less. you will always have that amount everyday, but you don’t have as much as you think you have as well, because 3 hours are used for eating and personal hygiene. 6 hours for sleeping. 8 hours for school. 2 hours for travelling around. you will be left with a mere 5 hour. and that mere 5 hour, you use 3 hours of it watching the channel 8 programs from 7pm – 10pm. now you’re left with just 2 hours, and these 2 hours usually consist of random stoning times. and then poof, there goes one day of life.

for those who have holidays, you will have an extra 8 hour cos there’s no school. so left with 13 hours! wow think u can afford to spend it away? think again! the amount of things u can do in the 13 hours will be things u can’t afford to do when u get back to school for the next 2 – 3 months or so! and this applies to me!

and so with my time, there are 5% of things that only I can do that no one else can. like growing spiritually in God, shepherding my sheep, build deeper relationships with friends and family etc. and it’s these 5% that i have, if i do it well! God multiplies the effect! you will notice that when u say you are resting and you play com games all day long, watch drama or chase series. at the end of day, you don’t really ‘recover’ at all. choose where you want to place your heart in well, where your treasure is, there your heart will be. otherwise you might live life only to keep saying “if only i had …. “

increase your time! by investing your time well in things of greater value! only then will it increase! don’t live a week’s worth of life in a month!

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holding everything together

October 1, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Happenings, Learnings, Ongoings, Quotes

wow had a great day today. was out running in the morning with cool peeps! hahaha we’ve got excited ppl calling me to wake up in the morning!! we met 10am at stadium! wooo. i dun really like to run in the stadium in a sense, cos its like running routinely. you know going “okay i have 4 MORE rounds, 3 MORE rounds.. etc..” it IS tiring to be living in a routine. but still i decided to go for it, cos i thought to myself, there has to be a way to run to finish the race and yet not do it out of a routine!

and so i set my target of rounds before i start, do a little stretching and off i go. i definitely have to keep in mind the rounds i ran, but i only keep that in mind at the start of every round, and once i pass the mark my mind is focused on just running instead, because i know i’ll get there if i just keep going on!

and i so enjoy the process of running because of this, i know i have my limits, times i go breathless or no strength etc. but know what? i just started like worshipping God in my heart, and i found so much joy and strength that i found myself just smiling at myself because i know it’s so cool that God is with me in what i’m doing! it’s really just so assuring that joy and peace just overflows! and the rounds i set out to run, i was supposed to be able to run it cos it’s around the distance i run normally. so i decided to go for an extra round! so that i know that i’m growing and improving heh!

and was so thankful on how God has slowly been training me on focusing on my own race, instead of comparing mine with others! its not perfect yet but im getting more and more of it in my life. oh and i didn’t like to run in the stadium because i would always tend to try running in other ppl’s race especially when i see them running ahead of me hahaha!

but truth is we really do not need to care about how fast others run! our race is our own designated race by God! specially customized for us! there is a plan for us to succeed in that race of ours, and you will find it hard to reach that success if u keep running at other’s pace in their race! and this is smth im getting and reminded of every now and then, God spoke to me bout it like quite long ago, but i didn’t get it fully. and im definitely only getting it more now because im holding on to God for it!

so here’s smth. maybe what we need is not really to hold on tight to things and people around us, but to hold on tight to the One who will hold on to those things for us. and it will make a difference to how we live our life, because we don’t own or possess anything, placing burdens on ourselves or others. but instead we allow God to own those things for us (although He alr owns everything in the first place). otherwise if you just try to hold on to things yourself, most times things will simply just fall apart and you don’t have any idea why. it’s because you’re obsessed with the wrong things that God would want you to be obsessed with! and God is the only one that will EVER hold everything in place. NO one else will be able to do it haha. there’s just still so much more of God’s heartbeat that i need to catch! man!

i wanna go for running soon again! hahaha cos we ate mcvalue lunch after our run! LOL! and “Fame” is really nice! a music and dance filled movie! i really enjoyed it and definitely recommend it to watch it heh!

[hold on tightly to the One who holds everything together.]

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at the end..

September 23, 2009 · Filed under Ongoings

wanna thank God for my major project! its been full of hair pulling and arghs over programming! but! thank God for all those ideas He popped onto my head when i’m walking, that when i go and try putting codes in different ways. it works!! programming is really alot on perspectives man, if you don’t see it in one way, you definitely have to go the other!=)

and this is a real random post, cos i just finished playing dota with my brother and those online ppl. and our team was actually kinda like losing, but no one suan-ed / insulted one another or what, but all we did was to get back on our feet, and tell one another it’s still possible to win. and when we started to gain abit of upperhands, there’s this guy on the opponent that started to insult / scold his teammates being lousy, out infront of everyone! (he could use ally chat talk, only his team can see what he types).

and slowly he started scolding almost everyone on the team except himself, and u could have guessed it. one by one his team mates left. though its true that he’s quite skilled, but at the end of the day. he is but ONE individual. and he’s up against 5 of us.

so what i want to say is this, so what if you’re good and skilled. at the end of the day, if you’re so good that ppl around you become lousy, you will end up but as one person on the field. why waste ur chances of your victory over your pride and wanting to be first! how much are those worth man! rather use those pride and insecurity, replace those with humility and start building ppl up, encouraging them to do more and better. these will bring you and your friends / caregroups / families victories, almost for sure. as long as you all don’t give up.

there are many ways to win, and one of them is to win together with ppl around you, and by far one of the best ways to win. because! it halves the suffering but doubles the joy!=) ED1 lets win this race tgt! be sensitive, have self-control and be punctual! BHB! heh

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lasting thru the race

September 20, 2009 · Filed under Convictions, Learnings, Ongoings

its now one of my favorite hobbies, running! i really enjoy it so much because of the moments i can have alone with God, disconnected with everything else in the world but plugged into Him.

i realize this that whenever i run, i set my heart in the correct posture of being soft and sensitive to God. i do that by letting down my guards and defenses, and from that point on i allow God to bring in all kinds of possibilities and His perspectives to me in regards to areas of my life.

and i can never learn enough or allow even a moment of letting my guard down against insecurity. every person i run pass at my own pace, i can always have the thought of they think im running so slow that its pointless or just simply allow myself to be myself and live my life without those extra burdens attached onto me. and the more i go out for these runs, the more i learn to be myself and i slowly apply those into different areas of my life, being more secured in God instead.

failures are one of things why ppl are more hesitant to run that extra mile, “what if i fail” and blah blah blah. and thru out the running my focus was on just running at my own pace which i know i wouldn’t run til im out of breath, and enjoying the run. and i really enjoyed it haha, hearing from God on how i view certain things in my life, certain things i do that is not right, problems that i should rmb i need to go thru with Him. it was fun and refreshing=)

one of the things i wondered. if u all realize, there is this application in facebook. “God wants you to know…” you all do know to not take whatever that is posted literally right? hahaha.. tho it may identify with you occasionally but don’t use it as something you would based your life and decisions upon! don’t use it as an excuse to run away from things in ur life especially. instead of trying to know what God wants you to know from facebook, how about taking out that time to use to hear from God what He wants you to know from Him personally?

not very hard really, pray and ask God to show you areas of your life that you’re not living it out right. sometimes u may alrdy know what is it, may be your relationship with certain ppl or certain things you do. then you allow Him to speak to you thru reading His word. infer from the situations that happened and see if u can identify yourself in any way, and if u can then the next step would be to follow it and apply it into ur life. but if u really dunno how to, ask ur shepherd or the person taking care of you heh=)

in the end i finished the race i chose to run in, because i run at a pace where i took in enough air and gave out just the amount i took in. it was never about the time, but the finishing.

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